It has been a while since I have posted.... and totally lame as it is, I've been too busy to sit down and write a blog post.
Which got me thinking.
There are many other people so much busier than I am doing more than I do. Mothers of multiple children, individuals with a full time job taking care of a family and training to compete in a fitness competition, others going to school full time and working and blogging and...What gives? Why can't I do that? I feel overwhelmed with what I have already, wrestling with fatigue and exhaustion, and struggling to squeeze worthwhile workouts into my schedule. I know there are people with exponentially more stuff on their plate, who are making it, doing better than I am, or doing a really good job at faking it.
I don't want to be fake with all of you.
I get tired. A lot. I'm making progress in this area of my life. I've been feeling better lately and been trying my best to not push too hard, enjoy little moments, laugh more, stress less. All that in itself takes work, energy, and concentration.
I'm prone to stress. I don't really handle stress all that well. I have a threshold, and once I reach it I can sometimes feel like a train wreck. Walking more closely with God and working on my faith have helped me immensely in dealing with stress and learning to enjoy life for what it is, to invest energy in positive things, and be thankful for the many blessing that are in my life.
I am passionate about health. But sometimes, there are so many other things going on that I put my health on the back burner. Not willingly, but guiltily. I make poor choices, and then stress about it. (See above paragraph.)
I am busy. I work a full time job, I'm back in school, I have a home, a marriage, and a myriad of animals to take care of. A social life should be in that list somewhere, but right now, it's not. I spend my free time with my husband and try to tell my dear friends that I'm thinking of them and love them, even if they don't get the time they deserve. (Do you hear that, friends? I LOVE YOU and THANK YOU for still being my friend.)
But there will always be someone busier than me. Always.
And you know what? I think I'm okay with that.
I do the best I can with what I have. I work hard, show up 100% for work and school, then give what I have left at home to recharge with my husband and our furry, scaled, and feathered children. I'm learning to be thankful, graceful, and forgiving.
My point is, don't feel like what you're doing isn't enough. You're busy. You're trying. You slip up. You're stressed, overwhelmed, and working yourself to the bone. There will always be someone that seems to be doing more than you. But know that you are enough. I want to create a community where we can all be accountable, transparent, supportive, and where we all know that we are enough, we do enough, we love enough and most of all, that we are loved.
